Honestly, I am at a complete loss for words currently. This weekend has been all kinds of long and messed up and my inspiration to write is gone. I know I promised you guys answers to the questions I left you with last week; but I'm going to put them off... at least for today. I have enough on my mind without adding to it with philosophical questions about my own life. If I feel better tomorrow, I'll try to post them up.
Maybe I should make an effort to answer them, though. At least a few. It may help take my mind off of shit, so let's go. If you had known 5 years ago you would be where you are right now, would you have believed it? 5 years ago would put me at the age of 9, almost 10... and if you told me where I'd be currently I think I'd have a hard time accepting it. I mean, in the course of five years I've gone through my parents divorcing and my mother's death, plus depression and the anxiety and pressure that came with that... I've also gotten past that and realized a lot. Friendships have come and gone, as have relationships. I have a lot more memories and experiences now than I did then and I have a much deeper understanding of life that seems to grow more each day. If you were to tell 9 year old me all of that... it would be a smack in the face as while I was mature for my age, I was nowhere near the maturity level I am now. I'm still not mature enough to "adult" successfully, but that's okay. I'm still a kid and I have the rest of my life to learn how to grow up. Honestly, I wish I could've had a more normal childhood. But it is what it is and the past can't be changed. I can only take what I've learned and use it to help me now and in the future... and to help others. I don't know... there's the answer to the first question. I'll finish the rest tomorrow. Thank you for taking the time to read. - Maddie
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These final 3 "things" are not quotes, but thoughts of my own that I am choosing to bring forth without inspiration. These are the final 3 things that I believe so many adults have forgotten.
I'm not even going to mark these off with numbers. I believe that too many adults have forgotten the sensation of being young. Too many have forgotten the days where grades didn't matter as much as time spent with friends, and the times where young love seemed to be filled with hope. Too many have forgotten the rush of late nights and the thrill of adventures never told to parents. Too many of you have entirely forgotten that time when you're young is extremely precious. You only have ONE chance to be young, one chance to make your own mistakes. You're only given one chance to create the stories you will someday tell your children. You've forgotten that not all kids are horrible examples. Some of us are very innocent. Just because some of us make poor decisions... it doesn't define the rest of us. We don't all want to throw late-night parties or sneak out to get drunk and stoned. We don't all want to waste our lives pointlessly. Sometimes, when we hang out, we just want to laugh and enjoy each other's company- not do illegal things. Sometimes, we just want to talk shit about that ONE annoying person that no one likes. Sometimes, just sometimes- we just want to be allowed to sit outside at 3 am and watch the stars while talking with our close friends. Right now, I want every adult to close their eyes and for just one moment, let go of every adult thing about them. Just try to remember what things were like when you were a teenager- without any adult biases. What were your dreams and goals then? What did you want more than anything? What did your parents never know? What memories did you make to tell your kids and more importantly, what lessons did you learn to pass on? Don't even tell me in the comments. Just think about it. - Maddie Title seem familiar? It should. I'm doing a follow-up/twist to my dad's blog post from earlier today; about things that the younger generation won't realize until they are older. I can't quite say I agree with his title- much of what he mentioned, I've already come to know. Then again, maybe it's just because I'm an old soul. Oh well. LET'S GET INTO SOME QUOTES!
I don't quite know yet if I'm going to elaborate on the quotes or just add them. I may just throw my two cents in on ones I feel the need to explain. At this rate, it's late at night and I'm ready to roll with whatever. 1 - "Just because my path is different, doesn't mean I'm lost." I feel like too often, adults press their children (and no, Dad, this is NOT aimed at you) to be copies of them. They expect them to look a certain way, act a certain way, and fit the norms of a culture that is not their own. So many parents I know restrict their children from making their own choices about things that really SHOULD be their choice- from the simplicity of appearance to the seriousness of religion. Most adults have forgotten that in their youth, they too probably wanted freedom to be themselves and to not conform to their parent's expectations. Each generation is different. And each generation has their own unique trends and personalities. Just because they aren't a carbon copy of what you were like growing up doesn't make them a heathen. 2 - "There is no need to have it all, just make the best of what you have." I also believe that adults dwell too much on the monetary aspect of life. I feel as though I've covered this in a separate blog post before; if you care to go find it, you can. What everything comes down to is that at some point, you were also a child or a teenager. You probably weren't concerned about what job you had or were going to have or what your future paycheck might be (unless you had the pushy, over-bearing and controlling parents; please see above). You probably just wanted to be carefree and happy and make the best of what you had- which was probably the minimal amount of money and good friends. What changed? What made you lose that... simplicity? I honestly hope I NEVER allow money to become more important to me than happiness. I'd easily settle for less as long as I could be happy doing what I did rather than make a large paycheck and be miserable. 3 - "The only way to have a friend, is to be one." Many adults don't have friends... at least, not close ones. From what I've seen, adulthood draws everyone apart and while that's understandable, it's also rather depressing. Just because you get a job doesn't mean you should let everyone you once cared about drift away. And while you shouldn't ever have to chase after a true friend; you shouldn't let them slip into the void, either. Sometimes, to maintain friendship, you have to be the first one to reach out. I think adults just assume everyone else is busy adulting and thus refuse to rekindle friendships. Well, this concludes part 1. Part 2 is going to be a collection of longer quotes; but without explanations. I've finally figured out how I want to do this. - Maddie |
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