I have SO MUCH I want to say about this right now that I don't know if I can even get it all out.
Let's start off with the fact that people who have never experienced addiction in some form will not EVER understand it. By experience it; I don't mean suffer with one- I mean watch someone you love and care for deal with an addiction and see the effect it has on their family. For me, that person was my Mom. I witnessed her alcoholism from a very young age, and it affected me deeply. I learned roughly at age 7 what alcoholism was and the horrible things it could do to both a person's body, mind and essentially... how it could destroy their life. Then, I watched it happen. I watched my mom slowly wreck her life by failing to change her destructive habit. She went through counseling, therapy, in-patient AND out-patient programs for her addiction... but none of it worked. Half the time, she would lie and refuse to follow guidelines, resulting in her being kicked from rehab after rehab and refusing to go to any more psychiatrists. This led to more struggles, and after a troubling pregnancy and my sister's very unhealthy and premature birth, ended with separation leading up to a divorce. After the divorce... everything got worse. My mom's sickness got dramatically worse, fading into anorexia along with the alcohol. It was this deadly combination that finally killed her at age 38, after spending two weeks in a comatose state in the ICU. Yet even after all of this... people who witnessed this and saw it happen... people who were extremely close to my mom... they still drink. Still talk about it, take park in it, and treat it like some sick kind of joke. And it hurts me... that even though they saw it, they don't realize it. However, these people have their own addictions... and I respect that. But the people who struggle with the addiction are often also blind to it. They don't see the pain they cause and they CERTAINLY don't take responsibility for it... and will deny it to the end. Maddie
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