I'm tired of the games
And the consistent attitude You always talk about yourself And I find it rather rude When you're in a time of need You know I'm always there to listen But when I greatly need a friend, You only make yourself glisten You copy off me, But accuse me of jealousy How much more can I take Before I let go so that you see I don't think you're humble I don't think you're cute You may act all innocent But you're evil at the root.
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Your life is limited, so don't waste it living someone else's life. Have the courage to follow your heart and intuition." I am paraphrasing Steve Jobs there. He was a bit long winded with what he was talking about, so I distilled it a bit to hit the key points. This quote is something that I want to drill into my daughters' heads. No matter what I want for you and your life, remember. it is YOUR life.
Do what you feel is best for you when you grow older. Right now, I am your shepherd. I am making decisions for you that I think and hope are in your best interests. When you are older, you will make these decisions for yourself. I am always here to speak with you about my decisions and why I make them. As you age, I hope that you will see the wisdom behind some or (hopefully) all of my decisions. Remember, though, that just because you can make a decision, doesn't always mean you will make the right one. Think long and hard before making a decision that will impact your future. Try to weigh the pros and cons. Don't make a decision to spite someone, or just to prove someone wrong. Remember, there is more to peace than just not fighting. To live in peace, you need to make decisions that are right for you now, and will remain right for you in the future as well. Think out your decisions in advance. What will the impact of your actions be on your well being? On your reputation? On your own self image and on how you are perceived by the people you meet. How will your actions impact the people around you? Does it matter? Your life can be wonderful...or it can be hell. It will all depend on your decisions. Don't make life-changing decisions when you are angry or hurt. Count to 10 before speaking when you are angry. Count to 100 when you are really angry! Speak honestly and from your heart...but don't use that as an excuse to hurt other people. Praise people when you can, but only speak ill to someone if you absolutely have to. Have the wisdom to know the difference. My wish for both of you is that I want you to be happy. Make decisions that will lead you along the path to happiness. Before you can do that, though. You need to know what happiness means for you. My path to happiness will not necessarily be your path to happiness. Know what truly makes you happy, and then pursue it. And if you find that you have been chasing a chimera, don't be afraid to step back and reassess your choices. Life is not a race... it is a journey. And if you travel down the wrong path, don't be afraid to turn around and try another. Although this post is for my daughters, I hope that other readers can also gain some wisdom from it. Feel free to leave comments with your thoughts. Today I read a new book called My ''T'' Book. Little ''T'' found a toy train and a tractor.
He also found a truck. He met a tiger while walking , who had a loose tooth. The tiger wanted him to pull it out so he did. They played with a tom - tom and a tomahawk near a teepee. I liked this book a lot. Ashleigh My throat has been closed now
For I don't know how long I don't have the air to keep singing Our falling friendship's song Every single sorry That rolls off your lips Leaves me wondering how the song Could ever be ending like this Tears are falling down Adding somber tones Not as somber as the ones We conceal in our phones Hurtful, hurtful melody With straight facts behind it What's one more bar Another blow, another hit I don't know what to do That I will confess You've taken my once neat brain And turned it to an un-organized mess Memories are everywhere Slipping out of reach Maybe you were a lesson Something life needed to teach But this lesson, I can't let go of I'd learn it a million times again But I guess I must now accept the fact That all good things must end. I have an iPad, it is a camera, game console and a teaching tool rolled into one. I like to
take pictures and videos with it. I also play Learning with Homer with it. Homer teaches me new songs and helps to teach me how to read. I like my iPad very much! Ashleigh I see we saw different things, while looking at the same thing. Well folks, that one is not a quote. That is just me leading up to today's topic. This weekend, I took my daughter Ashleigh out for a ride and we brought our iPads. Our mission was to have a photo contest. Each of us was to take pictures of what we saw, and once we got back my Mom would pick a winner. While the contest was for fun, I also wanted to see what differences there would be in our photos. In general, we both waited until we were on a back road in Dublin, New Hampshire before we started taking pictures. I had been driving before that and Ashleigh was playing Temple Run on my iPad while she waited for me to take us somewhere to take pictures. I am proud to say that my five year old takes great pictures! Below are our pictures. About 44 years separate us in age. Angles differ a bit, as do the topics or our photos. Still, I think both of us tried to pick up the underlying beauty of the area we were driving through. I have chosen six pictures from each of us. It was a grey day and the light of day was fading as we finished our ride. The last two pics are our attempts at silhouettes of each other. Enjoy! This is a view of a lake in Dublin. I like the mountains in the background. In the Spring, with a blue sky and leaves on the trees this view is stunning. It wasn't too shabby here either! Here is what Ashleigh saw. Same lake, but a different view. Very beautiful! Clouds gathering over the mountain. Ashleigh caught the clouds too, but from a different angle. Like Robert Frost, we too, are looking for the road less travelled. Ashleigh likes the crossroads. Great minds think alike! Ashleigh got a much better picture here. Her's is the top photo. Keeping an eye on the road is easy with views like this! A picture is like a mirror on the past. Ashleigh's picture uses the mirror to show us where we have been! Ashleigh's view of Daddy as the light begins to fade. We were under trees and there was't enough light for a good photo. The silhouette was kind of cool though. A quick pic of Ashleigh from the driver's seat.
I know that lately, I have been posting more poetry. Even I don't quite know why, but I can give a semi-good explanation. When I write my poetry, I don't think. I just let what is in my mind come out, and I decipher it later. I think that's why my poems vary in levels of... goodness. They come from my mind and they have to come naturally. I can't force them, much like I can't force emotion. Poetry is composed solely of whatever emotions I am dealing with at the time and whatever issues or situations I am facing, and when I emotionless and bored... I can't write.
This being said; it leads me to two different conclusions. Either I have been getting more emotional lately (which I guess would make sense due to the change of weather) OR, I've simply been more inspired by the events that have been happening in my life. I have become more socially active lately, so perhaps that is it. In any case, I have to leave now- I'm going out to see my friend. I didn't want this to be a long post; just a short one to clear up all my frequent poeting. I was about to write another poem today to be honest, and instead decided to validate myself. You probably would have preferred a poem; but as I said- I've been doing so many. So oh well. Happy New Year! ~ Maddie "What screws us up the most in life is the picture in our head of how it is supposed to be." That little gem is from an unknown author. Well, unknown to me anyway, and also unknown to the person who put the quote up on the quote page I had been reading. No matter who wrote the quote, there was a lot of wisdom bundled up in that one short sentence! We all have pictures in our heads of how life is supposed to be. Yet many people feel cheated that their lives are lacking a lot of what they expected it to be. Why is that? I think the picture above is a good example of that. That picture is my front yard. When someone asks me to think of home, that is usually how I picture it. I see myself sitting on my front porch, enjoying a slight breeze or maybe playing frisbee with my daughters barefoot out on the lawn. That is how I like to picture it. The problem is, that that isn't the reality. Reality is that I spend more time mowing that lawn than I do playing frisbee (which I have never done there anyway). Secondly, it would take a brave soul to walk barefoot there since my dog uses it as his private toilet. Lots of dog poop hidden among that grass! There is another problem as well. For six or seven months out of the year my lawn looks like (or has the potential to look like) the picture below: Yep, that is the same front yard. That big lump of snow to the extreme left middle of the picture is the big rock. Up here in New Hampshire, we have twice had blizzards on Halloween in the ten years that I have been up here. Last year, we had a snowstorm on Thanksgiving...that came as a mild surprise for my sister and brother in law who drove up here from New Jersey for the holiday!
My point here is that life changes faster than our perceptions about how life is supposed to be. If you are constantly going through life hoping that it will match some unobtainable ideal you have in your head all of the time, then you are bound to be disappointed...particularly if you take no steps to make that ideal come true. On the other hand, if you put it into your head that life has its seasons and that there are steps you can take to enjoy them all, then I think your life will be a lot happier. When life gives you snow, then make a snowman! Now, I know my above example is very simple, and doesn't pertain to everything that life throws at you. Still, if you try, you can take steps to make your life as enjoyable as possible. To start, go to where you think you have the best chance to be happy. That might be around particular people, or it might instead be a particular place, where you don't know any of the people. Second, try to get a job that suits your personality or that you are happy doing. Now, when I say job I don't necessarily mean go work for somebody else. You can also start your own business or do volunteer work. When I say job I mean find a way to make some money so that you can live comfortably. By living comfortably I mean in a way that is acceptable to you. I have always found that if I am going to spend my time doing something other than playing or relaxing, then I want to be paid as much as possible for the time I am spending that I can. That way, when I am not working, I have enough cash to do whatever I please (within reason). I also find it is best for me to do something that I find is interesting. In the end, we all spend a lot of our time working in one form or another to stay alive. I have always wanted to have my time working to at least be enjoyable to me. The more ways you can make your work enjoyable the better it will be for you, and the more likely it will be that you will have an enjoyable life. Anyway, I rambled and got off topic a bit. I guess what I am trying to say is that if you currently feel like you have a screwed up life, don't fret and think that you are the only one. We all feel screwed up at times. There are two ways out of it. 1. change your perceptions of what life should be so that it is closer to reality. Or 2. take steps to make your perceptions your reality. If you don't like snow in your life (ever), then move to Florida. That's a bit extreme, but you see what I mean. In other words, if you think your life should be spent by the ocean and you live in the upper Midwest, then you have a serious problem between perception and reality! So, you can either move to the seashore, or you can change the way you perceive life should be to make you happy. For me, I like to focus on the little things in life to keep me happy. A hot cup of coffee, the beautiful all-season views outside my windows, watching my daughters grow up... that kind of stuff. I don't need personal drama, or TV to be happy, although I do like a good book and laughter in my life. I guess what I am trying to say, is enjoy what you have...for some day you might not have it. It is also a lot better than lamenting about something that you don't have now and maybe never will. It's going to be a new year. In honor of that, I'm writing two letters, of a sort. One is to family; and one is to friends. Here we go.
Dear Family, Thank you for always being there for me, no matter what. Thank you for supporting me in everything I do and encouraging me to reach for the stars. Thank you for helping me to set goals and meet them; and for inspiring and encouraging me to make my dreams a reality. Thank you for teaching me the important lessons of life. Thank you for teaching me to think for myself and to speak for what I believe in. Thank you for allowing me to voice my opinion; and to be my own person. I am sorry for my attitude. I am sorry for being rude. I am sorry for dishonesty and for all the mistakes I have made in the past year. I am sorry for any hurt inflicted and I hope we can all move past it. I love you. Thank you so very much; for everything. I look forward to the many memories and laughs to be shared in the coming year. Dear Friends, Thank you for having my back in the crazy situations we get into. Thank you for helping me handle drama, and for not creating it (most of the time). Thank you for the hugs and late night conversations. Thank you for the talks when I am sad. Thank you for being there when I need you most. Thank you for all of our amazing inside jokes and memories. Thank you for the obscene group chats. I promise to always be there for you, as you have been for me... but I think you already knew that. I love all of you. Thank you for choosing to make me a part of your year, and for hopefully keeping me in the year that's just begun. ~ Maddie |
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