I love this quote because it resonates with me on a deep level. It took me awhile to find a quote to write about tonight, mainly because I was looking for a quote that would inspire me to write... and this one has done exactly that. Funnily enough, I was discussing something similar to this with my boyfriend earlier in the car... about how people's opinions on certain things can be misconstrued simply due to a lack of knowledge of a person's personal experiences to the outside world.
Allow me to explain: A beautiful example of secret sorrows can be attributed to my past. Most people who know me know that my mom is dead, know that my parents divorced, and know that I have a strong resentment against alcohol- but most simply take it as "family problems" that "every teenager deals with" and it truly pisses me off sometimes. Most people tend to jump to conclusions and make rash assumptions about my opinions and why I hold them and my life in general without knowing the severity of the situation. While usually my attitude towards people who make assumptions would be "fuck 'em" (I'm my father's child, if you couldn't tell), it bothers me that I hear "can you get over it?" or "it's a part of culture" on the regular about my opinion when I try to explain things. For your information, no. I can't "get over it" because I stood witness to a horrible addiction and battle with mental illness that destroyed me AND my family for 4 years from the time I was 7 to my mom's untimely death when I was 11. I went through severe trauma that I had NO control over at a very young age and it wasn't just "family struggles" that happen to everyone. This was SO much more than that and it turned my life upside down. Your cheap and offensive jokes are different from the ones I may make in the sense that I might, might, poke fun at you for your own dumb mistakes in the past- if and ONLY if you're okay with that. What you choose to poke fun at? For me, that wasn't a choice. It wasn't a stupid regret I could look back on and giggle at years down the road. There was no regret to be had because I DID NOT HAVE A CHOICE IN THE SITUATION. I was forced through it whether I liked it or not, and I would not wish it on anyone EVER. This all being said, I am to this day judged for my unpopular opinions and assumed to be a drama queen whenever I try to explain to people why I have the opinion I do. I've given up explaining to people who want to joke about the matter- it's simpler for me to just cut them out of my life. Who needs that negativity? Not me. - Maddie
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