My dad's post from earlier today really sparked some thoughts up in me- which I'm sure he's glad to hear, seeing as he has told me numerous times that the reason he writes is to trigger thought and to leave his memories, thoughts, lessons, and guidance for my sister and I when we get older (and now as well). I'm sure that out of all his blogs, he never thought that one he thinks is a "tangent" would inspire me.
My dad wrote about being a "type A" personality; or someone who is outgoing etc. However, he said that this is merely what people see him as. He's actually an introvert; thoughtful and peaceful. Now, in my opinion- who better to give her thoughts on who her dad is than me, his daughter, am I right? Well, probably not. I'd put my own opinion behind that of Aunt Michelle (my dad's sister and my amazing aunt) or maybe even dad's mom (my awesome grandma). But without further ado; I'd like to give my own thoughts about my dad... and don't you worry about the post title; I'll get to that, too. My Dad I'm sure most fathers would be both frightened and intrigued by their teenage daughter's thoughts of them- and perhaps my dad is no different. Fear not, Dad- you're doing an awesome job and I don't have too many complaints about you at all. Plus; this is more of an in-depth characterization of you than anything else. Despite our numerous deep talks about the subject; I cannot help but see you as the extrovert you claim to be so wrongly labeled. When we're out in public, you constantly talk to others and you have absolutely no trouble in social situations, even if you know no one throughout. You can always hold a long and smooth conversation about essentially anything, and you never seem awkward. However; I've also seen the introvert side of you- the side that loves to think deeply and write your thoughts out online; where they can be read smoothly by anyone without coming off as weird. But allow me to ask you this- if everyone sees you as an extrovert, even your own daughter... and you possess most of the qualities of an extrovert... then wouldn't that simply make you an extrovert who loves to think deeply? Everyone tends to be an introvert when they're alone; and no one would come out and say they just love talking to random strangers. That's just weird. In all, dad, regardless of what you tell me- I truly believe you're an extrovert! Maybe you were an introvert at some point; but if you act like something for so long, you do tend to become it. Maybe you're failing to acknowledge the fact that you transformed into an extrovert. But that's enough about my dad. Let's talk about me. I myself am extremely introverted. I hate crowds, I hate people, I hate social situations where I need to speak and interact with others, and if you asked me to do any form of public speaking, I'd probably respond by crying. I do everything I can to avoid talking to others; even if it's a person I don't know and will likely never see again. However, some of this may be attributed to the fact that on some occasions if I feel too overwhelmed with people; I shut down and begin to have anxiety attacks. These aren't too frequent; which is a good thing- the last one happened last weekend while out shopping with my family and prior to that, I hadn't had one for months... at least, not one to that severity. My throat closes, I have trouble breathing, I get dizzy and light-headed and usually end up crying for no reason. It's extremely silly and immature-looking, hence why I've worked so hard to not have them frequently by learning to pace my breathing and shut out a lot of people when I'm in public. Despite this, some of my friends may still tell you I'm an extrovert. Remember what I was saying earlier; how alone, we all are introverts? Well, when I'm *alone* (as in, out in public without friends) I tend to be extremely shy. When I'm WITH my friends... well, I feed off their energy! I feel free, like I can't be judged when I'm with them, and it empowers me to be a LOT more spontaneous. That, in my opinion, is a sign that I have amazing friends... so thank you all. Now, I need some sleep tonight... if you have any thoughts to add, by all mean drop me a comment below. Good night and good vibes. -- Maddie
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Aunt Michelle
4/16/2016 05:01:54 pm
Hi Maddie,
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